If I kiss you, what will happen…? (YuriAnnin)
You’re my childhood friend, I know you for so many years now. Yet I’m afraid to lose you. Why? Because I love you and I don’t want to break our friendship. You’re so essential for me. If I kiss you, what will happen…?
Today you sleep in my place, that’s why we decided to go for a walk in a park. We’re sitting on a bench. It’s quite late, we can already distinguish the sunset. It’s perfect. I could stay here with you forever.
“Nee Annin… It’s pretty, right?” You told me with a broad grin.
“Yeah, you’re right.” I said without looking at you.
I’m such a coward… But I don’t know what I need to do… I can’t tell you, you will hate me.
“Yuria…?” I called you suddenly.
“Yes?” You answered, turning around toward me.
I know what I’m sorry for. I just need it. I’m sorry.
“Wha-?” You started but I interrupted you, putting my lips on yours.
I can finally feel your soft lips, they are so sweet like cotton… You don’t move… I surely disgust you… I stand up quickly and leave you without looking at you. Did I break our friendship? I don’t know, but I run away.
I’m going to my home. I live alone, sometimes you stay with me and we spend the night together, talking all the time. Like today, we should do that but I destroyed everything.
I sit in the corner of my room, in the dark. The tears don’t stop to flow on my cheeks. I’m such an idiot… Why? Why could I hold me safe longer?
A few minutes later I hear the door being open. It’s you. You come toward me. You don’t talk, but pat my head gently. I raise it to look at you. You finally speak.
“Anna… Stop crying…”
“I’m sorry… I broke our friendship…” I managed to say between my sobs.
“Anna…” You started, but I didn’t let you continue.
“But I can’t behave as if nothing happens in my heart… I couldn’t hold it back anymore. When I’m with you, my heart is pounding so fast and-” I wanted to continue my ramblings but you stopped me suddenly.
I felt your lips on mine. I don’t move, shocked by what happens. Is it a dream? I don’t understand. Do you have feelings for me? Do you feel the same? Do you… love me too?
You break the kiss and move away. I can’t speak. You’re looking at me with an amused smile.
“Is it not a dream…?” I said, pulling you for another kiss and another one… Every time I felt your reply on my lips.
“I love you, Anna.” You said against my lips.
You said it and you mean it. You love me as I love you.
‘If I kiss you, what will happen…?’ But now… I know…