AKB48, Fanfiction, OS

[OS] Painful Love (Anna’s POV) (YuriAnnin)

Yuria’s POV

Painful Love (Anna’s POV) (YuriAnnin)

School. A perfect place to meet your friend, learn, grow up. I loved going to school. It was before, now I hated it. They bullied me all the day. When I went to school until I left it. They? Kizaki and her friends.

I was walking in the corridor, stressed. As usual, I tried to not look around me, to ignore all the students. I felt bad. I always felt bad and anxious. I was afraid of hearing my name or something else. Suddenly, something hit my back. It wasn’t hurt but I knew who it was…

“Are you all right?” Yuria made fun of me while her friends laughed loudly.

I didn’t turn around and continued to walk. I knew she will not leave me but I tried anyway. She didn’t let me go and grabbed my shoulder, pushing me to the floor.

“It’s not the time to sleep!” Yuria laughed, squatting in front of me.

I wanted to stand up and punch her with all my strength but I couldn’t. I was scared of her. I wasn’t strong enough and she had her friends. We heard a few footsteps coming toward us. I hoped someone will come to help me.

“What happened here? Are you okay Iriyama-san?” Yokoyama-sensei asked, worried, while I stood up slowly and avoided her look.

“She stumbled, we help her.” Yuria smirked.

Yokoyama-sensei looked at me, as for waiting explanation. I wanted to tell her, Yuria bullied me but I couldn’t, so, I just nodded slowly. Why couldn’t I speak?

“Be careful.” Our teacher said.

I took my bag and left the bullies quickly, hoping them to not follow me.

Yuria bullied only me. Yet, it was not the same for her friends. Yuria’s friends bullied everybody, no matter who it was. When Yuria wasn’t here, I felt relaxed. In fact, I always thought that was strange. Why did she bully only me? Why didn’t she bully someone else? It was just… I wondered.

Yuria was sitting next to me. Like usual, it was better for disturb me. Someone was reading aloud. The rest of the classroom was completely quiet. However, a noisy sound disturbed the silence and made the teacher turn toward me. My pencil case fell on the floor. I distinguished all the gaze toward me. I looked down and picked it, I heard Yuria giggling quietly like an idiot. I felt bad, my cheeks flushed. I didn’t like to be noticed.

I walked quickly toward the school’s exit. I wanted to come back home. I wanted to be in a peaceful place. I wanted to go out of here. But something snapped my thought, again.

“Are you in a hurry Anna?” A girl’s voice said.

No. Not again. I ignored them and ran away but she grabbed my arms tightly and made me turned around. Then, she released me and came closer. I realized it wasn’t Yuria but her friend.

“Answer me!” She yelled and pushed me violently.

I fell on the ground. It was hurt, I didn’t want to move anymore. I saw a fist raising toward my face. I closed my eyes, afraid. My heart pounded faster in my chest. Yuria never hit me directly, nobody hit me like this. But this time it was not her…

“Oi!” Someone yelled, behind the girl. “Don’t punch her!”

“Why? You said-” The girl started speaking but she was interrupted by Yuria who grabbed her collar.

“You don’t need to hit her.” She answered while I hid the sun with my hand to see her.

It was the first time she stopped one of her friends who was bullying me, they never hit me. Why did she stop her? Did she go… too far? I stood up quickly and rubbed my head. I ran to my house. I reached it and opened the door, breathless. I was shaking. I didn’t understand what just happened.

“Are you okay sweetie?” My mother asked, worried.

“Yes.” I answered coldly and went to my room.

I never told my mother about what happened at school. I knew, I should have done it but… I didn’t know why I couldn’t. I didn’t understand myself. I shut my room’s door and laid down on my bed. I slowly closed my eyes but Yuria’s face appeared. She? Why now…?


I walked next to my friend, Rina. I felt better when she was next to me. She was my only friend but we didn’t meet each other too often. We weren’t in the same school.

“Ah! I need to go home now!” She shouted, in the middle of the street.

“Eh? Why now?” I asked a little stunned by my friend’s action.

“I forgot to tell you, I have something to do. I’m sorry Annin.” She said before to run and leave me alone.

I let out a light sigh, looking at my friend. I started walking home but I passed in front of a little park and decided to stop here. Behind a tree, I could hear a young girl crying. I felt bad for the girl. Should I help her? Yes, I guessed it was better for her to not be alone. I squatted in front of her and patted her head gently.

“Hey, what’s wrong?” I asked softly.

The young girl raised her head toward me. Her eyes were red and the tears didn’t stop flowing on her cheeks but I recognized Yuria and I stood up quickly. Why? She cried. Could she? I mean, Yuria was a yankee, she used to be black hearted. She grabbed my arm and didn’t want to let me go. She looked at me, as hopeless. Her eyes looked different.

“I-I’m sorry…” She said while I stared at her, dumbfounded.

Then, she slowly released her catch and I left her without talking. What was wrong with her?! Why did she apologize? But, her words… Was it real? Did she mean it? I didn’t know and I didn’t understand…


I was going to my activities club. I was part of the manga’s Club. Read mangas and watch animes were my most important hobbies, I really liked it. I pushed the door slowly and walked inside. Alone. I was alone, nobody was there. No. I could see a figure sit on a school’s chair. I reached it but the person stood up quickly and grabbed my wrists.

“What do you- What are you doing here?!” I shouted, looking at the girl.

Yuria didn’t answer and pushed me against the wall still holding me. Will she hurt me? Why? I wanted her to let me go.

“It’s your fault…” She said, mad.

“Release me!” I yelled but she didn’t care. “You apologized last time but you didn’t mean it, right? You don’t care about me. I can’t understand you. Just leave me alone!”

I never raised my voice against her, I never answered her. I was stunned by my own words. She looked at me, surprised. Yet, she released my wrists. A few tears rolled on my cheeks. I started leaving her but she called my name. I didn’t know why but… I stopped myself and turned around. I felt her hand on my wrist but gently, I didn’t dare to move. I felt her lips against mine. My eyes were wide open. I pushed her with all my strength and slapped her. The sound was noisy, I surely left a red mark on her cheek. She looked down while I left the place. I hated her so much! She bullied me, she apologized and she stole my first kiss! Stupid Yuria… There was something in my heart… not pain but… guilt. Why? I couldn’t understand me because I didn’t need to feel guilty, it was not as if Yuria was my friend, right?


I was in a park, I was alone, sitting on a bench. I was waiting for my friend. It was cold. I rubbed my hands to warm me.

“Ah! Annin!” Rina shouted, walking toward me.

“Hey, why did you want to see me, now?” I asked with a little smile when she sat next to me.

“Please, don’t hate me… I-I-We…We know each other since a long time…” She started speaking before pausing for a few seconds.

Was something wrong? Did she do something wrong?

“And… I need to tell you… I love you Anna.” She said without looking at me.

I stayed stunned. Love? I thought we were friends. I couldn’t love her. I didn’t feel the same. But I didn’t want to hurt her. I remained quiet for a few seconds before speaking again.

“Rina I-” Someone interrupted suddenly my sentence, pulling Rina’s collar.

“She’s mine.” The girl said without leaving Rina’s eyes.

What was she doing here? I wasn’t hers! This girl, I hated her.

“Stop it! Don’t touch my friend.” I yelled while Yuria released Rina. “I don’t lo- I hate you!” I shouted at Yuria.

Rina looked at me, walking back before running away. I wanted to scream her name but I couldn’t… I didn’t want to her leave me. After a few seconds, I looked at Yuria, she was standing up in front of me. She broke everything.

“Why?” I asked but she didn’t answer. “Why?” I yelled again.

We stayed quiet. The snow danced around us. I was cold. I didn’t understand her. I finally started leaving.

“Wait!” She said while I stopped myself. “I’m sorry…” She asked in a sad voice.

It was the first time that I saw her so fragile if I dared to say it. Yet, I didn’t want to hear her apologies and I walked again. I felt something was wrong. Did I really hate her?

Rina loved me… Could we stay friend? I hoped we could. And… Yuria… Yuria… Yuria… I didn’t see that her name sounds cute. Hey! What was I thinking?! That couldn’t be cute… I hated her! I hated her! I hated her! I hated her! I… hated her! I… lo-loved her… The kiss, I wanted to feel her soft lips again… I didn’t want to feel her painful touches anymore. Could I say it? I loved her. It was a painful love. Why? I couldn’t have feelings for her. But, my heart wanted something else than hating her.

“What are you doing?” My mom asked while I opened the house’s door.

“I need to go somewhere!” I answered and ran in the cold.

I was going to the park, I didn’t know where I could find her… I looked around me. I made out the tree, a girl is crying, hugging her knees. It was Yuria. I knew it was her.

“Hey, what’s wrong?”

She looked at me, the tears rolling on her cheeks. I showed a warm smile. I needed to tell her.

“So, what happened?” I asked again.

“She hates me…” She answered, trying to stop her sobbing.

So, she had a trouble with someone. I didn’t think Yuria could be… sensible.

“Who?” I sat next to her.

“The girl that I love…” She lowered her head, avoiding my eyes.

So, she loves someone, she loves a girl. Why did she kiss me? I didn’t understand.

“And… why does she hate you?”

“Because I was afraid of my feelings, so, I hurt her.” I blushed at her words.

Hurt? Wait. Was it me? It was… possible, right?

“I’m sorry.” She wiped her tears away and looked at me.

“Yuria… I love you…” I said, taking all my strength to tell these feelings.

I said it. Finally, I felt free. Was it okay to love her? She moved her arm but I recoiled. Yuria looked down and stood up.

“Sorry…” She mumbled and turned around.

She understood I was afraid. Why did I move back? I didn’t want to be afraid anymore. I didn’t let her go and grabbed her arm to make her look at me again. I pulled her into a warm hug. I felt her arms warping my waist gently. It was the first time. I felt great. Her arms were warm, I liked it.

“I love you… but, I hurt you, I was stupid and I don’t deserve-”

“Yuria.” I made her stop her ramblings. “I love you.” I added, stroking her cheek gently.

“I promise, I’ll not hurt you anymore.” She told me, turning away her eyes from me.

I didn’t understand how I could fall in love with her. But I didn’t care. All I knew, it was that my heart beat faster when she was around. I felt it right now, her love. I didn’t notice it before. Still in the embrace, I leaned to taste her soft lips again. When we pulled away, she showed me a light smile.

“Thank you.” She whispered while a single tear flow on her red cheek.

The End.





AKB48, Fanfiction, Long story

Darkness : Chapter 8

Previous : Chapter 7

Darkness: Chapter 8

Matsui Rena’s POV

Jurina was too fast. I couldn’t follow her. However, I didn’t want to turn myself into a wolf. I knew where she was. I took a deep breath and walked inside the wood. I followed the good way, trying to hold back my tears. It was a big misunderstanding. Nothing happened.

Continue reading “Darkness : Chapter 8”

AKB48, Fanfiction, OS

[OS] My Savior (YuriRena)

My Savior (YuriRena)

Another boring day. My alarm clock rang loudly. I rubbed my tired eyes and pulled me away from my snug bed. I grabbed a few clothes and walked toward the bathroom. I didn’t want to move but I hadn’t no choice.

“You will be late!” My mother shouted from the kitchen.

I groaned and left my peaceful place. As usual, I skipped my breakfast. I couldn’t eat, so, I spent my time to watch the TV. I wasn’t in a hurry to go to school. Then, I packed my bag and left my house.

After a few minutes I reached the school. The students talked and laughed together. And me, I was alone. I walked to my classroom without paying attention to them. On the way, a noisy laugh stopped me. I recognized it. The fear and worry engulfed me. But I didn’t move, staring at them.

“Hey Rena!” One of them said, walking toward me.

They surrounded me without removed them annoying and stupid grin. The corridor was calm. We could hear the student outside. I felt someone pushing my shoulder, my bag fell. The sound resonated. I didn’t dare to move. I wanted to cry and disappear, but I couldn’t. I couldn’t make them stop it. Another hand squeezed my arm tightly, I closed my eyes.

Suddenly, I heard the ringing. I opened my eyes, they looked at me, pissed off. Not for today, but they will come back tomorrow or later. They started leaving me but a boy turned around and spat in front of me. I quickly grabbed my bag and finally reached my classroom. I released a light sigh. I will be safe for a few hours. I sat at the back, the seat next to me was empty. I could look through the window, I was fine here. Nobody to bully me. When the teacher went into the classroom, the students became quiet. A young girl was next to him.

“We have a new student. Please, introduce yourself.” Our teacher said, looking at the girl.

“Hello. My name is Kizaki Yuria. Nice to meet you.” The called Yuria said with a warm smile before to bow in front of the class.

The students keep silent and the teacher looked for a place. Deep down, I wanted her to be next to me. I had no friend.  And… she could become one, right?

“Here.” He started, pointing out the empty chair next to me. “You will be sitting next to Kato-san.”

After these words, Yuria reached her seat. I didn’t look at her or say a word. I didn’t dare. So I stayed quiet.

I packed my bag and left the classroom. I passed by the washroom but a hand pulled me inside violently. I fell on the floor and saw a bully locked the door. I didn’t really react. I was tired of it.

“So. We need to finish our work.” One of the bullies smirked and grabbed my collar.

They will push me and will make fun of me, as usual. I knew it but I remained afraid, my heart pounded fast because of the fear. Suddenly, someone hit the door. One time. Two times.

“Oi! Open it!” Someone shouted outside.

The bullies released me and turned around toward door. Someone here? Did the person help me? Or it was just a coincidence…

“Sh*t! We need to leave guys!” They unlocked the door and left the washroom.

I stayed on the floor and looked through the door. Nobody was here. I tried to hold my tears back and I stood up weakly. I left the place, a pain in my heart.

The class was boring. What happened before disturbed me, I couldn’t think properly. I quickly pack my bag and leave to my home.

I locked myself in my peaceful room. I turned on the music and laid down on my bed.

I never talked to Yuria even though she was next to me every day. She quickly became friends with Anna and Rina who were just in front of us.

I sat and opened my bag to take my bento but… none. I forget it. I mentally face-palmed myself before letting out a sigh. What should I do?

“Are you all right?” Someone asked suddenly.

I turned my head toward the voice and saw Yuria, sat next to me, eating her bento.

“Ah, I forgot my bento…” I said, looking down.

“Let’s share mine!” She said happily.

Her words made my head raise toward her. We barely knew each other and I didn’t want to bother her.

“N-No. It’s fine, I will buy something in the cafeteria.” I answered while my cheeks turned pink.

“Really? So, let me come with you!” The raven-haired girl insisted.

“S-Sure.” I hesitated because of her offer.

I didn’t know why she wanted to come with me but why not. It will be better than alone.

“Thanks Kato-san!”

“Just call me Rena.” I said, standing up.

“So, call me Yuria. We’re friends now.” She answered, cheerful, following me.

Friend? Already? Well, it could be a good idea after all. We walked toward the cafeteria. When we reached the place, I saw the bullies, not far away. They noticed me. I gulped when they walked toward me. I stopped to walk, terrified. No. Not now. Please.

“Rena?” Yuria called me and turned around.

I didn’t answer and continued to stare at the other students who were in front of me. My new friend reached my side.

“Oh, sorry Kato.” One of the bullies said, spilling his food on my shirt.

“Oi!” Yuria shouted.

I looked at her, surprised. This voice… I didn’t think she will come to help me. I was glad she did it. People only stared at me, laughing but Yuria seemed different.

“Don’t dare to bother her again!” She continued, mad.

I looked down, I was ashamed. Suddenly, she grabbed my wrist and pulled me toward a quiet place. The bullies didn’t follow us. We stopped, I didn’t raise my head and a few tears rolled on my cheeks. Yuria patted my head without saying a word.

“W-Why did you helped me?” I asked, still sobbing.

“Because you don’t deserve to be bullied.” Yuria answered softly.

I looked the raven-haired girl. She smiled, it was a sad smile. I didn’t deserve to be bullied. Why did she say that? I didn’t understand.

“Come with me, I will help you to clean it.” She said, pointing out my dirty shirt.

She dragged me toward the washroom. When we reached the place, she took a wet paper and scrubbed my shirt.

“I-I can do this by myself.” I mumbled, embarrassed, I felt my cheeks becoming red and hot.

“It’s fine. I have already finished it.” The raven-girl grinned.

I smiled shyly and we left the place. This girl was too kind to me. I felt embarrassed.


“Hey Yuria, do you want to go out with us?” Anna asked with Rina next to her.

I didn’t look at them, I quietly packed my bag.

“Yes, thanks.” She stood up and told something else to our classmates before turning around toward me.

“Do you want to come too?” Yuria grinned at me.

It was the first that she invited me but I couldn’t accept.

“No, it’s fine. I need to go home.” I answered with a fake smile.

She noticed it and showed her worry on her face. I didn’t need to go home. I was afraid to be at home. I didn’t know if she answered me because I quickly left them without more words.

I rushed to leave the school. I didn’t bump into the bullies, I was relieved.

I opened my house’s door and let out a soft sigh.

“Are you all right?” My mother asked, passing in front of me.

“Yes, yes.” I answered and reached my peaceful bedroom.



To: Rena

From: Unknown

Take care of yourself.

Good night m(__)m


I never saw the number before. I wondered who it could be.


To: Unknown

From: Rena

Who are you?


I waited. Few seconds, minutes and then hours. I wanted to know, who this mysterious person was. But no answer. After the dinner, I gave up and went to sleep.

I closed the door. I felt a bit better about going to school now. Yuria talked a lot with me. I liked to stay with her.

“Come on! We will be late!” A familiar voice said behind me.

I slowly turn around toward the voice and stayed stunned.

“W-What are you doing here, Yuria?” I asked, walking to her.

“Don’t ask. I said, we’re friends now.” She pouted cutely.

I was stunned, she wasn’t my neighbor. Why did she is here? I knew we were friends, but- Wait. Did she come to my house to take to school? I couldn’t ask anything, she grabbed my wrist, making me walk.

Every day was perfect. Yuria came quickly my close friend. I was glad. Yet my heart wanted more. Even though I knew it was wrong, my heart didn’t care and hurt me when I saw Yuria. Mostly when she was with Anna or Rina and she laughed with them. I was terribly jealous. I wanted her to be mine but I knew I couldn’t and it hurt me.

“Rena. Long time no see.” I heard a nasty voice behind which snapped my thought.

They never bothered me when Yuria was here. Only, this time, I was alone in front of them. I didn’t know what to do.

“Nobody to protect now.” He laughed foolishly, walking toward me slowly.

I squeezed my bag’s handle tightly and started to look at the floor. One of them pushed my shoulder violently. I lost balance, I felt my knees touching the cold floor. I released my bag when he grabbed my wrists to make me facing them. He raised his punch toward me. I quickly closed my eyes, afraid.

“STOP IT!” I heard someone shout suddenly.

I opened my eyes, then, I looked toward the voice. It was the teacher and Yuria. She saved me again.

“YOU! COME WITH ME!” Our teacher shouted while the bullies followed him.

Yuria ran toward me. I stayed on the floor. I couldn’t move, I was shaking.

“I’m here, it’s fine now.” She said, hugging me tightly.

I felt my heart pounding crazily. She helped me to stand up without breaking the hug. She stroked my back, I felt my cheeks becoming red and hot. I suddenly pushed her away. She looked at me, stunned. I didn’t her to hear my heartbeat.

“T-Thanks…” I mumbled before to leave her alone and speechless.

I was such a coward I ran away because I fell in love with my savior, the girl who made my life better. Why? She was my only friend. I stopped myself and leaned against a tree. I felt my phone vibrating and looked the message.


To: Rena

From: Unknown

Are you fine? I’m worried. I saw you just now.


I wondered who it was again. I looked for he or she since the last time because the person hadn’t replied to me. I wanted to know yet I couldn’t. I didn’t send a message to reply and put my phone in my pocket again. If he/she was really worried, that person should have talked to me.


It had been three days. I didn’t see Yuria. My heart and my head hurt me. I was terribly sick. I skipped school.  I felt so bad for didn’t give an explanation to her. She must have hated me.


To: Rena

From: Unknown

I didn’t see you today. I hope you’re fine.



To: Rena

From: Unknown

Please, where are you? I’m worried.



To: Rena

From: Unknown

I miss you…


I read it again. I got a text every day, even though I still didn’t know this mysterious person who missed me. I missed Yuria. I missed her a lot. I single tears interrupted my thought. My mom opened my door’s room, a hot tea in her hands. She handed me the mug and I took, sitting upright. She put her warm hand on my forehead.

“Do you feel better?” My mother asked softly.

I simply nodded and drank the tea. I was heartbroken.

“Your friend is here.” She said before to leave me.

A young girl was standing up in front of my door. She walked quietly inside. I recognized her.

“Yuria…” I mumbled, stunned to see her.

“I’m sorry…” She said with a little guilt in her warm voice.

I missed her. I really missed her. She sat on the edge of my bed and I did the same.

“How are you feeling?” The raven-haired girl asked softly.

“Better right now.” I answered without looking at her.

I needed to tell her.

“Right now?” She asked in a surprised tone.

She kept her hands on her laps, looking down and waiting for my answer.

“B-Because you’re here.” I mumbled, blushing badly.

I couldn’t see her face but I hoped she didn’t hate me because of my words.

“Why didn’t you reply?”

“What? You didn’t send any message…” I answered, stunned.

I stayed quiet for a little before suddenly understanding. I hadn’t her number. But, there was one person who was worried for me and sent me a few texts.

“I-It was you…” I mumbled and she finally looked at me.

She nodded slowly. I turned my head toward the floor. I felt sorry. But why didn’t she tell me?

“Why you-” I started speaking but I couldn’t finish my sentence.

“I love you.” She said suddenly.

I, maybe, forget to breathe at this time. I grabbed her hand slowly and we intertwined our fingers. She quickly raised her head toward me.  I loved her and she loved me back. We had the same feelings.

“I love you too… I couldn’t tell you… Since you save me… I fell I love with you.” I dared to look at her, nervous.

My heart pounded fast when I saw her usual smile on her face. She hugged me tightly. I wrapped my arms around her body.

“I’ll be there for you.” She whispered in my ear, I blushed badly.

She pushed herself away. I couldn’t stop staring at her, looking at her lovely face. She stroked my cheek gently.

“Stop…” I blushed and looked at my bedroom floor.

It made me suddenly shy. She giggled before kissing my cheek. I stayed frozen.

“You need to take a rest. Take care of yourself.” She said, opening my door’s room.

“Wait!” I shouted suddenly.

She turned around, waiting for me. I wasn’t able to say anything, even though I called her. I stayed quiet, sitting on the edge of my bed. I didn’t know what I wanted.

“Yes?” She asked, always waiting for me.

She walked slowly to reach my bed. She put her hands on my laps while her gaze met mine. I couldn’t look away and she didn’t move.

“Y-You will be sick if-” She interrupted me, putting gently her lips against mine to make me quiet before removing herself.

It was so soft but too short. I knew she will be sick but I wanted to taste her lips again and longer.

“Don’t care.” She said quickly before to attack my innocent lips again.

I closed my eyes and enjoyed it. The taste of her lips was better than I could think. Our lips played together for some seconds before we pulled away.

“Take a rest.” She winked and left me.


To: Rena

From: Unknown

Love you!



To: Yuria

From: Rena

I love you too, stupid Yuria… (>_<)



I was feeling better after two days. I finally could come back to school.

“You seem better now.” Anna said, smiling at me.

I looked at Yuria. She was pale. She was surely sick. I told her that she will get sick the last time.

“Are you okay?” I asked, worried.

“My head hurts…” She looked down and I giggled.

She hit my arm to make me shut and shot me a dirty look. I wondered if she was mad, but finally she took my hand, then, put it in her pocket. I blushed and didn’t look at her.

“Tsundere~” She said suddenly.

“It’s not true!” I pouted. “You, you’re stupid. I told you and now you sick.”

“It’s because of you.”

Me? I knew I was sick but it was her fault.


“You make me stupid.”

I hit her arm gently, blushing badly. She looked at me with her famous smile. I couldn’t hold myself and finally smiled. She was perfect.

She is my savior.

The End

A/N: This fanfic is a request